The inner pigdog...

... is a german expression. Your inner pigdog is your worst adversary. He is the one who is stopping you from doing what you should. He is lazy and tempting. You have to beat him to succeed.
My inner pig-dog killed my habbit to get up early. I'm everyday one hour later at work than I wanted to because of him. When I'm at work I can't really do anything before 11:30 because I feel like i'm still in my bed. It's going on like that since weeks. I'm not productive and efficient at all. Besides work I have a lot of other things to do. Really big big tasks like writing some emails, reading a few documents and buying a pair of new jeans but I leave those things for after work. And then I get home totally exhausted and don't do anything. FFS that's just rediculous... I don't know why but since my exams finnished I have totally lost myself. I need to get a grip.

Ok you sucker! This means war! I let you back in my life but hereby I declare that I will kill you! I will get up at 06:00 am every day. As well at weekends! I will do the most important things right after I wake up! I will fix my sleeping rhythm! I will work-out before going to work! I will have enough time and energy for my loved ones, for my friends and for the things I like! Take this! I will eradicate you! Within 2 weeks you will be completely deleted from the face of the earth! And to make it worse and more humiliating for you this battle will be public! To prove this there will be 1 blog post before 06:30 am every day for the next two weeks.
Strap in and watch.

posted by Yavor @ 11:13 AM
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Great moments in cinema

Todays feature: Mulholland Drive (2001)

CUT TO: EXT. BEACHWOOD CANYON - NIGHT
Adam, in his Porsche, makes his way up the canyon.

INT. PORSCHE
Adam feeling like a fool drives up the dark, winding canyon road. As he nears the top of the canyon the residential area gives way to desert brush. The road winds steeply up to a dark dead end where an old barn and stable sit. Adam parks in a little dirt lot and walk up past the barn to the corral. His eyes grow accustomed to the dark and he.looks about. No one is around. There's only a light wind and a few twinkling stars in the sky above. Suddenly some bare bulbs hanging from the corral gate flare up. Adam hears a noise in the brightness and turns. There walking toward him into the light is the Cowboy - dressed in clean blue denim jeans, well-oiled unscuffed, beautifully engraved cowboy boots, a red embroidered ivory buttoned cowboy shirt complete with string tie. Atop the Cowboy's head is a 10 X white Stetson. The Cowboy is smiling warmly as he approaches. He stops in front of Adam and begins to speak with a true, slow Western drawl.

COWBOY

Howdy!

ADAM

Howdy to you.

COWBOY

Beautiful night.

ADAM

Yeah.

COWBOY

Sure want to thank ya for drivin' all the way up to see me from that Beverly Hills Hotel.

ADAM

No problem. What's on your mind?

COWBOY

Well now, here's a man who wants to get right to it. Kinda anxious to get to it are ya?

ADAM

Whatever.

COWBOY

A man's attitude ... a man's attitude goes some ways toward how a man's life will be. Is that somethin' you agree with?

ADAM

Sure.

COWBOY

Now... did you answer cause you thought that's what I wanted to hear or did you think about what I said and answer cause you truly believe that to be right?

ADAM

I agree with what you said...truly.

COWBOY

What did I say?

ADAM

That a man's attitude determines to a large extent how his life will be.

COWBOY

So since you agree I guess you could be a person who does not care about the good life.

ADAM

How's that?

COWBOY

Well, just stop for a little second and think about it. Will ya do that for me?

ADAM

Okay, I'm thinking.

COWBOY

No. You're too busy being a smart aleck to be thinkin'. Now I want ya to think and quit bein' such a smart aleck. Can ya do that for me?

What a truly outstanding movie. I watched it 3-4 times during the last 2 Weeks and everytime I see it it get's deeper and deeper. The characters haunt me at night and during the day scenes randomly pop-up to my mind. It totally challanges my perception of my own reality and forces me to question if the way I live my life is not just a twisted Moebius strip and if it is can I and should I untwist it.

Other movies watched recently:
- Lost Highway (1997): Well yeah. What can I say. It's David Lynch. Love it. Need to watch again.
- No Man's Land (2001): It's a war movie. It blew me away and challanged me quite a lot as well. Maybe more on this in another post.
- Snatch (2000): I watched it for the 3 time now and I'm still thinking: Yeah It's funny and stuff. Cool mobsters and stuff. But seriously: What a brainless peace of crap. Guy Ritchie says on the DVD that he wants to be perceived as a serious (=1) film-maker with this movie. But... this is not a serious film(=-1)... It's not hard to figure out that this leaves us with a fairly simple equation: 1-1=0.

Tomorrow I'm off to watch Transformers. Curious if the equation works out there...

posted by Yavor @ 10:56 AM
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Keep you eyes peeled

- A rainbow
- An elder businessman reading celebrity gossip
- A middle aged woman with pink pants
- Her daughter with a pink suitcase
- 2 recruits watching a movie and laughing honestly
- A big bold guy joking with strangers
- A small hairy guy joking with the big bold one
- A sunset after a storm
- The smoking soil
- A smiling cashier enjoying her job
- A purring kitten

posted by Yavor @ 8:52 PM
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Since I left you

I don't feel like talking lately. That's why here is one of my favourite music videos.

posted by Yavor @ 4:43 PM
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Reality Check

posted by Yavor @ 11:05 AM
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Red curtains

Exams are over. Now let's finally get involved in some real brain training and not the conformist and hardly relevant stuff that I was fed during the exam period the last weeks.
I mentioned my new addiction to David Lynch's Twin Peaks earlier. I'm through with both seasons. 98 per cent of the second season sucked badly. It's sad. But the rest was outstanding, challenging and beautiful. All that is left now is the Movie. But not now.
Anyway. Since I have some more time now I intend to spend more of it on working on my music and my unfinished tracks. While I get inspired I suggest you do the same by listening to Mr. David Lynch.
I really hope that this will make as much sense to you as it made to me. Enjoy:

This led me to Terence McKenna. I had no idea who he is but this makes a hell of a lot sense to me as well:

I think that I have to dig a little deeper...

posted by Yavor @ 2:32 PM
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The dramatic chipmunk!

The best 5 second video on the web. Fact.

posted by Yavor @ 8:47 PM
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